d'Homicide

Live to kill you.. To finish this worst song.. But you run away! You don't wanna our lovely song.. The end is coming soon,baby But the heaven only holds 4 me.. You got your feet on d path no rock moves You were too scared I'll make you pay.. Then you're gonna die...

uNt0ucHabLe

who the hell am i?
Sometimes this question drives me insane
i'm a big disgustin monster
i'm blind coz i can't see one another was care..
Smiling loser
who's thought that she was everywhere

i've an untouchable soul
had moments where i would cry
life had to take something away
and leave me in gray

i can't give any truly smiles
i'm a faker with hidden mask
walk around miles by miles
tell you that i never been lack

this door is untouchable
every word you would say are too predictable
and i'm too old to dream
that anyone can touch me softly

Thx aL

Thanks
teaching me ways to survive
give me a life
eventhough i wish it was hidden
coz i thought my soul was stolen

thanks
4 take me as i am
hold me with your flame
tell me that life isn't a game

thanks
4 being my big brother
make me better n stronger
stop me being a suicider
n won't let me play as a self harmer

thanks
4 being there
watch over me anywhere

thanks
aL

bLOoDy sUiciDeR

I was very edgy n suicidal..
I was on the verge of contemplating suicide..
I would give everything not to have felt what i feel right now..

I tried to stagger of..
But so many pains were burn
I thought i was dead
I wish i was dead
But i wasn't dead

My wounds were so grievous..
I was still crawling
Breathing..
Drowning..
Moaning stertorously..
Miraculously
Horrifyingly
Trying to slip away
Trailing blood n viscera..

I was a cool skul
I'm just a smilling puppet
I don't know where my heart is..
I sobbe over n over staring into the hazy night sky
I cry

I had even left a note..
To my imminent death
Though might have been another of thinly veiled suicide..

But..
My castle in the sand have finished yet

I couldn't explain..
How much i miss not being able to die..

I could't tell you

self harmer

I'm sick of being Suck!
Damn!
Shit!
Disgusting!

I thought I could be a self-harmer..
I want to bleed..
Blood letting loose,
It becomes an art..
There only words I wouldn’t harm anyone..

A voiceless face inside of me..
is the blood on my piece
It felt like an eternity
my soul is empty

cut my wrists and slit my throat
As I begin to cut,
blood is rushing out
nobody makes me question what that is about,


This is the only thing that helps me to cope..
i don't have enough time for one last thought


It's funny how can I hurt my self
It's hard to say that I'll be saved
when I become too overwhelming to be faced..

Run..Again

I’m gonna cry
I don't know why you asked me why..
Why I can't stop ruining your life..
I know you haven't noticed,,
Eventhough I fall on my face
For that is something I just can't do,
To make sure that I'll leave you

I'm running..
I feel coming
Out of my wings
It's intoxicating

I still running Won't lay motionless Run in darkness Hell is something I'll find first.. I run on as the night passes on, but talk of none If there's a battle I haven't won.. Nothing's fun And Run.. Run.. Away.. Till die..

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Wanna kill my self!

I'm better off dead
I have no worth
I wish I would never be found again
I tried drowning myself
Run into a wall 'till my face is red and I'm deformed like an inbred. .
Kill me when you want,
Just if it will keep you away. .

I constantly wish I could go back in time and fix all the stupid mistakes I made..

Oh.. God!

i dont see shit funny...
I definitely want attention.!
it's pretty sad I must say
feeling that no one would care
What can I do to stop wanting attention as much??
I never knew I could feel so dejected and desperate.
Like me getting messed up...

There isn't even a word to describe my insanity
Death can be hard thing to handle..

I need something to get me through the day
You use to be there for me to make sure everything was okay
I am so embarrassed to feel this way.
I just need your advice on how to not feel so bad..
I need you
Truly feel deeply about you

I feel so horrible. My stupid antidepressant isn't working and I don't fucking know why!
I need you!
I need you!
I need you!
I do!

Creep..
Creep..
Creep..
Let me know you hear me!