uNt0ucHabLe

who the hell am i?
Sometimes this question drives me insane
i'm a big disgustin monster
i'm blind coz i can't see one another was care..
Smiling loser
who's thought that she was everywhere

i've an untouchable soul
had moments where i would cry
life had to take something away
and leave me in gray

i can't give any truly smiles
i'm a faker with hidden mask
walk around miles by miles
tell you that i never been lack

this door is untouchable
every word you would say are too predictable
and i'm too old to dream
that anyone can touch me softly

Thx aL

Thanks
teaching me ways to survive
give me a life
eventhough i wish it was hidden
coz i thought my soul was stolen

thanks
4 take me as i am
hold me with your flame
tell me that life isn't a game

thanks
4 being my big brother
make me better n stronger
stop me being a suicider
n won't let me play as a self harmer

thanks
4 being there
watch over me anywhere

thanks
aL

bLOoDy sUiciDeR

I was very edgy n suicidal..
I was on the verge of contemplating suicide..
I would give everything not to have felt what i feel right now..

I tried to stagger of..
But so many pains were burn
I thought i was dead
I wish i was dead
But i wasn't dead

My wounds were so grievous..
I was still crawling
Breathing..
Drowning..
Moaning stertorously..
Miraculously
Horrifyingly
Trying to slip away
Trailing blood n viscera..

I was a cool skul
I'm just a smilling puppet
I don't know where my heart is..
I sobbe over n over staring into the hazy night sky
I cry

I had even left a note..
To my imminent death
Though might have been another of thinly veiled suicide..

But..
My castle in the sand have finished yet

I couldn't explain..
How much i miss not being able to die..

I could't tell you