Rabu, 01 Juli 2009
d'Homicide
Diposting oleh fuckin diary di 12.57
Sabtu, 28 Februari 2009
uNt0ucHabLe
who the hell am i?
Sometimes this question drives me insane
i'm a big disgustin monster
i'm blind coz i can't see one another was care..
Smiling loser
who's thought that she was everywherei've an untouchable soul
had moments where i would cry
life had to take something away
and leave me in gray
i can't give any truly smiles
i'm a faker with hidden mask
walk around miles by miles
tell you that i never been lackthis door is untouchable
every word you would say are too predictable
and i'm too old to dream
that anyone can touch me softly
Diposting oleh fuckin diary di 03.09
Thx aL
teaching me ways to survive
give me a life
eventhough i wish it was hidden
coz i thought my soul was stolen
thanks
4 take me as i am
hold me with your flame
tell me that life isn't a game
thanks
4 being my big brother
make me better n stronger
stop me being a suicider
n won't let me play as a self harmer
thanks
4 being there
watch over me anywhere
thanks
aL
Jumat, 27 Februari 2009
bLOoDy sUiciDeR
I was on the verge of contemplating suicide..
I would give everything not to have felt what i feel right now..
I tried to stagger of..
But so many pains were burn
I thought i was dead
I wish i was dead
But i wasn't dead
My wounds were so grievous..
I was still crawling
Breathing..
Drowning..
Moaning stertorously..
Miraculously
Horrifyingly
Trying to slip away
Trailing blood n viscera..
I was a cool skul
I'm just a smilling puppet
I don't know where my heart is..
I sobbe over n over staring into the hazy night sky
I cry
I had even left a note..
To my imminent death
Though might have been another of thinly veiled suicide..
But..
My castle in the sand have finished yet
I couldn't explain..
How much i miss not being able to die..
I could't tell you
Diposting oleh fuckin diary di 01.06
Senin, 26 Januari 2009
self harmer
I'm sick of being Suck!
Damn!
Shit!
Disgusting!
I thought I could be a self-harmer..
I want to bleed..
Blood letting loose,
It becomes an art..
There only words I wouldn’t harm anyone..
A voiceless face inside of me..
is the blood on my piece
It felt like an eternity
my soul is empty
cut my wrists and slit my throat
As I begin to cut,
blood is rushing out
nobody makes me question what that is about,
This is the only thing that helps me to cope..
i don't have enough time for one last thought
It's funny how can I hurt my self
It's hard to say that I'll be saved
when I become too overwhelming to be faced..
Diposting oleh fuckin diary di 12.55
Run..Again
I don't know why you asked me why..
Why I can't stop ruining your life..
I know you haven't noticed,,
Eventhough I fall on my face
For that is something I just can't do,
To make sure that I'll leave you
I'm running..
I feel coming
Out of my wings
It's intoxicating
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